Sunday, May 25, 2008.
A very sweet sweet dream...
This dream is smth i had to blog in de... If not next time will sure forget de... Hahaz... Hmm... I dunno how the dream started... It stared with me and her... Dunno y it felt so close... Both of us were like we are a couple le... Laughed teased and did all sorts of things in a scene like orchard road... Did not remember the full details... Then i also met jia yi (girl)... Then she saw the both of us... Then i was like being teased... As usual... Lolx... Had been thinking of her recently again... Haiz... Y like this de... Everytime i call pple to fang kai jiu hui kuai le... But me myself had been trying to do so... But i could not do it... Y??? Maybe i really need another person in my life... My life dun revolve around this person only...
Although letting go is not wat i really wanted... but it's a fact that i had to accept... If not she may think i'm pestering her and it will be frenz no more... I'm not calling her out or anything coz i scared she thinks that i had not given up on her... Distance between me and her is getting wider and wider... Too wide that i also dun dare to patch it up. Maybe this is the best solution for me ba... Always a strong believer in fate... I believe that the right gal will be there waiting for me de... It may be some other pple or maybe going round in circles and finally back to where i started... Let fate decide wat i have to do in my life... Hahaz...
I'm starting to believe that she is looking at my blog last time... Maybe stop liao... But hope if she sees this she won't get paranoid and start ignoring me... I really wan to move on with my life... But i still clinging on to the past... Time will heal all the wounds that i have hurt myself...
SEN^39 has blogged @ 01:16.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008.
Finally the 6 days of offs are over... Nevertheless I enjoyed the 6 days... Although i spent 3 days slacking at home... Hahaz... Been thinking a lot... Like wat wei long jim sebas jin long they all had said... Some of the things i believe is true but there is some which i did not agree on... That day... i didn't speak much when we were talking... I did not know y... Maybe i'm very tired or i juz dunno wat to say or i know smth then i dun wan to say... Of the 3 option i think i'm at the last option... I believe that if there is a will there is a way... Though it might not be the best of best ending which u might have wanted... But i believe that as long that you have done ur best then is okay de...
I believe that my entire life i'm not been doing the best that i can do... In every aspect of life, there is always something that will make me feel de-motivated de... Weird rite??? Relationship studies hobbies, and i believe many many more...
Do anyone of u believe that watching drama series have impact on one's life??? I totally believe it... Even some movies also do make a impact on me... Drama likem rhythm of life... I dunno y... But it really did make me feel as if i'm in the show... It talks life relationship and many many more topics which i can't relate now... Hmm... I suddenly got this feeling that the plot in the drama might juz happen to me in real life... Hope it does not happen... Hahaz....
Other than thinking of these things... I enjoyed myself outside also... Like last wed went clubbing with wei long cherie and her frens... (hope ah hao hamburger they all dunno... I will get killed by them) Then there was skating... So fun sia... For quite a long time which i nv skate... Suddenly go back to skate like so scared... Hahaz... Now we thinking of reviving the 8wF spirit... Call all skaters... Who wanna skate... can join us... Call me wei long or anyone in 8wF... Hahaz... Hope i can go to the runway skating event at paya lebar airport there... The place where i had my heart shape scar on my hand de... Which someone say i deserve it de... Hahaz...
Time flies... Now is like may again de... Hahaz... Then is like last year i juz went into army and was so passionate abt army... Then this year... Is like less than 10 more mths to ORD le... So happy...
One year passed like a blink of an eye... situation has change quite a bit... Some frens left and many frens came into my life... But one thing haben change. The 3 important lessons which i learn from last time... (last time i call them regrets... Now i call them lessons) Still in my mind very much... Hahaz...
1) If u like someone, juz go for it
2) Always care abt other's feeling before i do anything
3) Treasure everything and everyone around, treat them as good as possible
A considerbly long post... Actually still got things to type de... But i think forget it ba... late le... Tmr stil need to wake up at 6... Nites to all !!!
SEN^39 has blogged @ 00:36.
Saturday, May 17, 2008.
Finally can find sometime to blog le...
The past one month i been very busy and couldn't find time to come blog... I had done a few things to make myself more relax... Yep yep... Did felt more relax... Sebas came back wei long also came back... Seems like everyone is back. And jim jun yong yao boon and gang are going into army liao le... Hahaz... They seem very eager to join the service... I wish them good luck in their NS life... Hahaz...
Kinda wanna find someone who i can really confide to... How i wish i got a elder sis to help me lor... I always wanted a elder sis becoz of that... They are more concern abt their younger bro... Then i also dunno lah... My brothers are having their own problems... Won't wan to add on anything to them... Haiz... Even liang yu also not free... Dunno who to talk to sia... Although i talk to jia xin a lot of wat i'm thinking but i still got some stuffs taht i dun dare ask her... Something which i can only talk to liang yu abt it ba... Dunno y leh...
Hmm... Think i gtg to go sleep le... Tmr meeting Jansen aaron they all...
SEN^39 has blogged @ 01:55.
Friday, May 02, 2008.
Counting today is 11 more days then i start packing and look forward for a short break abt 6 days ba... Still a not bad break after some tiring things that i'm doing now. I sometimes felt so sick to book in into camp but had to do it because i felt that i had to be responsible for my own things. Feeling so much better now le.
During these few weeks, I realised a few things... I still haben quite do wat i wan to achieve this year... My 12 pull ups... Now think back to 6 liao. Then the inline hockey thing. I think i should juz forget... However i got smth done or should i say that thing came to be done... Kinda happy that the result wasn't quite the way i had think... Not too bad of a ending to the issue. Another thing i said was to appreciate everything and everyone around me... Made some improvement... But still lacking the effort to do... Especially with my god sis they all... Seriously for the things they help me and advice me on... They deserve more better treatment by me... As in presents and their birthdays... Kinda forget sometime sia... That's something i dun wan it to happen. Another is my brothers... Each and everyone got their own problem... What i could do is to advice them and not add on any problem of mine... In this case i'm still doing not bad... Only sometimes my moody face may make them tu lan... Hahaz... Had been pondering over some brother's issue... But i can't do much also...
Had mixed feelings this week. I also made a swear over an issue that i had been struggling with... The issue won't be said... But hope that this swear can let me forget the unhappy past. And nv to repeat the same mistakes...
Then there was a very sweet dream... That i told liang yu and 2 of my camp mates... How i hope that will happen but i dun think will ever happen. Even liang yu also say that is not that possible for that combination to occur. Hahaz...
I also tried to ment the sour relationship between me and a close fren... Hopefully the friendship between the both of us could turn better... I said a lot of wrong things in my life... And i think i confused the meaning of friendship big time... Hope for the best ba...
Sounds like i only got one sweet dream to be happy abt... Hmm... Hope for more sweet dreams... Maybe i can dream of a DG like wei long... Lolx...
Talking abt wei long he muz be looking like a indian by now... Lolx... 43 degree celcius sia... OMG!!! Hope he got sun block sia... Hahaz...
Got to congratulate some pple i know... Like
-Jun yong with his girlfriend( i dunno how many mths liao... As long they remember can le.)
-Xiu min and his boyfriend ( 3 yrs le i last saw xiu min de blog.)
-Wei long and his much awaited india trip ( lols. Didn't really know whether u like india not. But know that u like outfield)
-Jin long and his sispec posting( he had hope for this since he was enlisted...)
-Jia Xin and her uni posting( Hahaz... She's always worrying abt her cannot go into uni)
-Jim and his airforce test( Hahaz... Should be pass ba... A future protector of the skies)
And blah blah blah... Forgot wat i wanna type liao.
Wishes for me!!!
-Yeah juz hope to get into the DSTA scholarship,
-and find someone who i talk my heart out to.
It's near the halfway mark of the year le... Time flies... 10 mths and 11 days more... The much anticipated gift for me... On the 13 or 15 of march next year... A pink item. Hahaz... Guess urself... I think i should rest a while le... Gtg to go back to camp later... Hahaz...
SEN^39 has blogged @ 16:57.