Tuesday, January 23, 2007.
In some ways... I think i'm back to the usual me le... The suddenly happy and suddenly sad me... Hahaz... Was very happy when i finish work today... However... Then when the thoughts of someone came... Suddenly i turn sad... Haiz... Y leh??? Dunno leh... Juz suddenly... Now listening to the song jim send me the other time... Nice song... But very sad de... Talking abt a relationship de... Saw the lyrics lor... Quite meaningful... But cannot apply to me... Coz it's hard for me to find
someone that i really like and someone who really likes me... With my pimple scars on my face... Those dark spots on my face... Who will like me leh??? Haiyo... This is my life ba... Hahaz...
Time really flies... Now is near the end of the month liao le... Then abt 2 more mths... I'm going into NS liao le... I'm really scared... I scared that something might happen to me... I juz dunno why... Maybe becoz of my phobia in the waters... Then heard from pple that in NS is the officer throw u into the water then muz save urself... I'm scared that i cannot save myself...
I dun wan anything to happen to me... Coz so many things i haben do... So many things which i am not ready to let go... And also one question which is not answered... I really wan the answer to the question...
Every memorable time we had togeher, I remembered them clearly as if it happen like yesterday... But i juz dunno wat u think of me... A pest??? A friend??? Or more than juz a friend??? I wan the answer... But no one can gib me the answer... Maybe u might wan to let me know??? An unanswered question...
SEN^39 has blogged @ 00:51.
Monday, January 22, 2007.
Short blog...
Hahaz... Muz type wat i wanna say as fast as possible... So late liao... Muz go sleep soon... Tmr work morning shift... Yesterday i thought that things that were not meant to be will never be... Hahaz... Sounds chim hor??? Very easy explain de... If this book has someone's else name on it... U can't make it yours de mah... Unless by some naughty moves lor...
Hahaz... Dunno y i thought of this... Lolx... Hope everyone's doing fine... I think after chi new year then i will haf more timefor frenz... But in the mean time... Muz work hard... Hahaz... Think this mth can earn a 1 k at least... Hope so ba... Jia you for me at Taka tmr... Hahaz... Sayoz and nites...
Still thinking of u... But when chances come... I missed it... Am i foolish??? Maybe we are juz not fated to be... Dreams are always nice and sweet but it's so far from reality...
SEN^39 has blogged @ 02:12.
Sunday, January 21, 2007.
So long since we.........
So long since me wei long jin long jim qi min jun yong met up to talk crap liao wor... Hahaz... So long sia... The other day at my birthday bbq... Didn't had the chance to talk to all of them... Coz kinda busy lor... Hahaz.. Hmm... Finally can talk crap liao... Shared kinda lots of things sia... Especially wei long with his NS stories lor... Hahaz... Hope there will be more gatherings lor... Our friendship nv dies... Hahaz...
Was thinking a lot today... Today i gain my confidence to shout hourly... Although is not very loud... And i stuttered a lot... I still think today was a breakthrough sia... Hahaz... I hope some of my other things can overcome also lor... Like meeting her... Hahaz... Was thinking of buying her a gift before i go NS wor... A early b'day gift... Plus some pple's gift also... Muz buy one... Hahaz...
Talkng abt her... Starting to haf some confidence back liao... Like last time in nan chiau... I'm glad also lor... Hope me and her really got that fate lor... To meet until each other... Hahaz... Then wei cong and feng wei say is correct lor... If a gal cares abt looks over character then this gal can forget it lah... Hahaz... Dun think she is lor... Hahaz...
Hmm... I really wan to know to the answer to one question which had bothered me for very long... Does she like me mah??? Ask a lot of pple liao le... Then all no answer de... Dunno is they really dunno or dun wan tell me de lor... Hope these pple can tell me lor... I would rather haf the truth than lies... So plz tell me... Hahaz...
It has been a long time since i really face to face talk to you liao lor... Hope you are doing fine ba... Dunno y suddenly i keep thinking of you wor... Even at work wor.... I dunno y... U really have a special place in my heart... I will not forget u de... Time really flies... Now i know u for 6 yrs liao... Then know tan pei ying for 12 yrs liao lor... Super long sia... Dunno will meet any more gal which will haf such a impact to my life... Deep impact... It will never be the same anymore...
SEN^39 has blogged @ 02:58.
Thursday, January 18, 2007.
I'm the person who everyone should detest and should not be friends with....
Like wat jim said on the 16 of jan... I'm someone who u should despise and hate... Coz i hold on to some stupid rules of fate...
The story goes like this... Me and jim were suppose to meet to go john little to buy my shirts and belt... Then went to jim house a while... Then left his house to go orchard liao lor... Hmm... Then when we walk past bossini in hougang mall... Then i saw her working... I told myself that i should juz walk away ba... Coz i dun think she will wan to see me also mah... Then i quickly make my way to timex shop... Then jim go say hi to her...
After shopping... We decided to go to steven's mom's funeral to pay our respects to steven's mom... Then we walk past bossini again... This time i also did the same thing... Walk away... Then jim said somehing that i think i'm really that kind of pple lor... I'm a coward... I dun dare to face the reality... I always shunned away from these problems... I'm juz someone who takes everything for granted... I'm juz someone who u all should despise...
Note!!!
To jim...
Heys... Not ur fault for saying me... Everything is the truth... I dun blame u for saying that... That is my character... As a friend u should know it more than i know myself... As a pang guan zhe...
Ask anyone who knows me... I will always say leave it to fate to settle the things... I'm someone who cannot grab hold of opportunities when they come... Am i stupid??? I think i am....
Ming ming xi huan ni... Ke shi que bu gan jian ni...
I think i should juz stay single ba... At least i no need to care so much... And also i'm not those who take initiatives de... I'm juz someone who needs a push in anything i do... I'm sorrie my friends... I disappoint u all...
Yep... I finally got to see u... But i took another way to miss this opportunity... I'm stupid to do that... But i did it twice... I cannot blame anyone above now for not giving me a chance to see u... I purposely missed everyone of them... I deserved everything i did...
SEN^39 has blogged @ 01:24.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007.
Today went to toa payoh there to find my black colour shirt... But... Found nothing... Oh man... Wasted trip sia... Then on my way back to Sengkang... I found out that i lost my metro promoter tag... Then the last thing... No sales today... Today compass point was very quiet sia... Then Jia xin hazel and pai pai came... Think they dunno i working there... Hahaz... Then talk to them a while then they go eat le... Was so darn unmotivated today... The feeling for unluckiness is overwhelming my thoughts...
With quiet compass point... Means no customers... Then i start to think other things... Like my whole life... My past... My everything... These few days i had been so tired... Slept so soundly... Nv dreamt of her... Nv dreamt of anything... I juz got some feeling that something or someone is going to change my life pretty soon... Not too sure wat or who... But i juz got this feeling... Capricorn de incstinct quite true de... Hahaz...
Walked pass hougang mall... Thought that fate will let us meet each other... But no... I didn't see u... thin u had already changed ur job le ba... Or transferred to another place le??? Maybe we are not fated to be together... Maybe i should had not tell u that i like u... Or maybe i should not had met u in the first place...Maybe it's juz fated to be like this...
SEN^39 has blogged @ 01:41.
Monday, January 15, 2007.
Before u know how to move... Learn how to stop....
After the dinner with jim jin yao alicia... Send alicia to the bus stop then walked to jim house then i walk home lor... Then i was thinking a lot of things... U see the title... Hmm... An example... Skating... If u know how to skate fast but u dunno how to stop then how??? Hahaz... Then I thought of my life... A lot of things that i dun know how to stop before i begin moving... That's why i fell so many times in my life... Some might say... Ups and downs are part and parcel of life... I agree to that... But dun someone believe that downs are sometimes more than the ups???
Kinda tired staying in this world... A world who i can't find someone who i can really like, protect and care for... I know i sound negative... Maybe that person haben arrive ba... Some say... But can fate bring me some clues to my life??? I really need some guidance to from someone, something or somewhere... Or izzit juz her??? The very special her??? I wish that it's her... For i dunno how any gal in the future could have such a impact to my life...
In my dreams.... The feeling's nice... How i wish i can sleep a lot longer... So i can dream of u longer... However, that was juz another dream....
SEN^39 has blogged @ 01:26.
Friday, January 12, 2007.
Time flies...
Looking at my friendster testimonial... Juz notice chuan's xmas testimonial... Hmm... It's sure fast sia... Juz remember adding the testimonial not too long ago... Then now it's already 12 of jan liao lor... Hahaz... Maybe working too much le... Lost track of time... Hahaz... Been thinking a lot these few days leh... Dunno y de... Keep thinking of her... Haiyo.... Dun think meet her before i go NS ba... I need to find days to meet up with old frenz... Oh man... Forgot mandy today go back UK le... I also nv send her... Sianz... Dun think can meet her before NS le... Haiya.... Stupid me lor...
Not too sure y i dun haf the motivation to work these few days... I can see the difference in the way i work lor... Think i'm too preoccupied by the thoughts of her...
Btw talking abt (should i say yesterday) Jim and Sam came to compass point to pei me for lunch... Hahaz.... So good lor... I'm always having dinner alone de... But nvm lah... working mah... So i'm fine with it... met kinda lots of NC pple today also... Met Aileen and ting wei wor... They teaching at NC leh... As relief teachers... Then also saw jia tee and chun kiat... Hmm... Not too bad sia... Hope to see more frenz wor... Last few days before i go to Takashimaya square liao lor... I think it will be a totally different experience lor... Dunno wat may happen lor... But jia you to me and my collegues!!!
Life's short and to find one true love is a blessing itself. But to find many many good frenz is even bigger blessing. So treasure the people around you.My birthday wish is of wat jia xin thought it is... Although i know it may nv happen... But let me live my life in my dreams... Because in my dreams, the things i wished for would only happen...Living life in dreamland......
SEN^39 has blogged @ 02:10.
Tuesday, January 09, 2007.
Back from a blog drought....
Hahaz... Hmm... Very long nv blog liao le... Got kinda lot's of things to say wor... Hmm... Firstly... I'm now working for my aunt... In the company call Intero... A company form by former Friven boss... Hahaz... Then now currently a Sengkang Atrium there... At metro Home linen Fair... Hmm... Kinda fun workin with joyce and wei cong... Plus other pple from other brands... Hahaz... But very tu lan is the king coil staff... Keep cutting my sales... But i got their product info le... Tmr maybe can make a comeback... Hahaz... Dunno leh... I also not that strong as a promoter...
Then 3 days ago was my birthday... Had a bbq at pasir ris park... Then met up with some frenz who i nv see very long... Like jun yong jia qun they all lor... Hahaz... Had lots of fun... I love it wor... But kinda disappointed that she did not come... Jia xin mandy pai pai hazel and jim should know who i referring to... Hiaz... Sianz... But nvm... Still had lots of fun also... My workplace frenz they all also turn up... And also... My ODAC frenz... Really wan to thank jansen... He came down as soon as he reaach singapore... Hahaz... Received kinda lots of presents... I liked them all... Hehez....
Dunno y these few days i kinda EMO sia... Kept thinking of things that happen in the past... Then thought of her... Then my frenz... Dunno y lor... A bit dun feel like workin sometimes... But i pushed myself for the sales lor... Hahaz... Jia you to me... Hahaz...
To those who wished me happy birthday or came to my party de...
THANKS to you all... I really appreciate it...
SEN^39 has blogged @ 01:45.